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Letting Go of the Avoidant Who Feared Intimacy

  • Writer: Tom Robinson
    Tom Robinson
  • May 21
  • 2 min read

There’s something deeply painful about loving someone who’s emotionally unavailable – especially when you’ve got an anxious attachment style.


For a long time, I mistook the emotional highs and lows for passion, convincing myself the push and pull meant it was something profound.


But in reality, it was just a cycle of longing, uncertainty, and slowly losing myself.

I was attached to someone who feared true closeness – someone who kept me dangling just enough to stay hopeful, but never close enough to feel secure.


Every time they pulled away, I leaned in harder. Every time they went quiet, I tried to fill the silence. I became someone I barely recognised – desperate for reassurance, craving attention, constantly on edge.


But I’m not that person anymore.


Healing an anxious attachment style isn’t about changing someone else. It’s about choosing yourself – fully.


I stopped asking, “Why can’t they love me properly?” and started asking, “Why am I accepting crumbs when I deserve a feast?”


Avoidant people often run from intimacy. When things start to feel real, they retreat. And for a while, I thought their emotional distance was a reflection of my worth – as if I wasn’t lovable enough, secure enough, or interesting enough to stay close to.


But that’s the lie anxious attachment tells us – that love must be earned, chased, and proven.

The truth? I was in love with their potential, not their reality. I kept hoping they’d finally show up in the way I needed. But love based on potential isn’t love – it’s fantasy.


Real love is steady, present, and safe. It doesn’t leave you second-guessing your value.


Letting go wasn’t easy. But it was necessary.

It wasn’t one big moment – it was a thousand small decisions. Every time I chose peace over panic, every time I resisted the urge to send a message, every time I reminded myself that silence isn’t rejection – I took a step back towards myself.


Slowly, things began to shift. I stopped interpreting their avoidance as a reflection of me. I stopped waiting for them to change. I stopped needing them to validate my worth.


And now?


I genuinely feel nothing for my avoidant ex – not in a harsh or bitter way, but in a peaceful, liberated way.

There’s no more ache. No more what-ifs. No more holding on to a version of love that wasn’t real. Just a quiet gratitude for the lesson, and a deeper understanding of what I truly deserve.


Today, I choose emotional safety. I choose consistency. I choose me.


If you’re in the process of letting go of someone who couldn’t meet you where you are – know this: your healing doesn’t have to include them. You don’t need closure. You don’t need them to explain themselves. You don’t need them to change.


Sometimes healing is just this: waking up one day and realising… you feel nothing. And that, in itself, is freedom.


TR


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