Kierkegaard: Purity of heart is to will one thing...

I realised after getting my thinking mind back post psychiatric poisoning that the root of the root of my suffering was some kind of existential crisis.

Basically, I think this is the same for a lot of people in suffering but most don't identify what it is. Anyway, I've been reading Purity of Heart is to Will One Thing by philosopher Soren Kierkegaard and having been suffering with internal pain again in recent weeks, today I feel better.

I've had massive problems with relationships in my life but I've realised that without God then none of them have a chance. The only thing you can do is to will the Good.

One does not do this for a reward or to avoid punishment but you do it because you genuinely know it to be the right thing -Hence why I am currently housesitting for friends, helping psychiatrically harmed people etc, etc, etc. It is because it is Good, not because I am getting a reward or because I am trying to avoid punishment etc etc.

It's hard to understand and even more impossible to explain in text.

The take out point is that if you have a seeking mind and are having a midlife crisis (most of my friends although most of them haven't even realised) then you are going to have to read philosophy. Basically there comes a point when hedonism doesn't work anymore and believing in God just 'because' doesn't either. It has to come through a place of critical thinking.

To do this takes solitude. It takes deep suffering and patience. It takes giving up everything you thought was important to find what is truly important. This doesn't come from another person, money, drugs, alcohol or anything else. It comes from willing one thing.

I am now going to finish editing my novel for the Good, not reward, and not to avoid punishment, and finish Purity of Heart is to Will one Thing.

I feel better.

TR